It’s time for musical theater with Hammaryn.
Today I missed my Uncle Ken. The vacuum broke, I’m supposed to be quitting smoking, and I woke up with a giant chip on my shoulder from yesterday. I got on the computer frustrated, sad, pissed off, and in general occupying a nice little corner of my own screwed up headspace. I opened up Chrome, and went to facebook. Lo and behold, an awesome friend of mine was having a hard time with something too. Reading that, I remembered what I should have thought about this morning.
Suffering sucks, and yet we all go through it. I can look back on any time I learned a great lesson, and see now that it was borne out of something terrible. Something that hurt, something that I didn’t want to go through, and that I wished would just go away. My life hasn’t been too easy the past five months, but I’m getting to learn a (hard) lesson now that I wished I would have known years ago.
I don’t believe that people choose to suffer. I used to; but given the alternative, what person would? Sometimes we just don’t yet see a way out of our own crap. There have been times in my life where I wanted to bury my head in the sand, and say poor me. I felt like what I was going through was too hard, and I wanted to be alone.
But I never was. No one ever is. Personally, I believe that God is always right there beside me, even during those times when I think He’s being a giant asshole. I also have amazing friends, and a family that loves me very much. When I hurt now, what makes me feel better than anything is knowing that I’m not alone. And somewhere out there, someone else is hurting, and I can be there for them too. So that they don’t have to go it alone.
Things will come out right now, we can make it so. Someone is on your side.
And I am never alone.